koochy

2010-11-28T18:57:00.003+08:00

NK PARTY can?
wohohoho!
:D

2010-11-21T10:56:00.008+08:00

ive waited for ages for a simple outing to actually happenned. And it did. yesterday. Syukurrr. haha. Had dinner at the New Victory restaurant near The Sultan Mosque. The Murtabak fuuh sunggoh sedap la kan~ :D

*i messed up with the template page n am lazy to trouble myself to fix it again, so yahh~ sorry for the 'hazy pictures'. :D

2010-11-19T20:33:00.005+08:00

Like a book, i flipped through most of the entries from my archives and that had got me saying "emotional nye aku!!" hahaha. seriously. mostly all of my post were about me walking on a lane of an emotional disorder or some sort. i wonder why~ is it because people tend to write more when they are trying to find solace? nyehh~ guess so. if its true, i am indeed one of them. wohoho. Anyway, i found myself staring blankly into space sooper banyak kali recently. am i ok?

work was soo much fun just now. maybe 'soo much fun' was an overstatement but it was fun overall,really. haha. i want a 2nd job however. ;/ Having a job is not enough to cater to all my wants. nk dye hair, nk shopping , nk pegi mkan at some expensive restaurant..to sum it all up- nk kuwa nk kuwa nk kuwa with girlfriends! Grr.nyehh~ thus, we-me,adeq n Didie went for a little job hunt yesterday. Tough luck though~

haha.

2010-11-17T15:26:00.005+08:00

It dawned on me that sad story like these can be easily compromise in which i just need to tell myself that this was all a charade to begin with-part of life experience. *Aal isz whell* Lols. I accepted knowing that things happened for a reason n answers are not always what i wanted it to be. Though it is hard for me to figure whats with everything which u had laid upon me, im indeed done with hoping. I'd managed to pick up all those little hints uve dropped. Gladly u know wat, till here. One thing for sure, i stopped-i didnt quit. hehe. See ya around~ i promise i will never ever bother u again with those random late nights n early morning text. those 'randoms' were my questions actually by all means to your unfathomable attitude. ur silence were my waited answers. so thank you, really.

otey im done expressing. haha.

Selamat Hari Raya Haji People.

2010-11-14T23:59:00.003+08:00

nyeehee~

mentang2 da holiday, mcm gini la we spent our time when we have like the whole free time in the world~ lepak with aisyah, adeq,haris and akhbar at bb yest evening~da lamer la kann tak jumpe aisyah hahaha~ adeq first attempt to do cornrows to my hair ^^, i swear-STYLE abez. but the parting was not right, i noe. mcm nk buat pon ader. nyehh~

aneway~

nari start keje alek! yey yey!
i am seriously overjoyed!

*kecing kecing!

hahaha.

ow yahh. nk announced that i am seriously proud of myself~

weehee~

i have not been smoking a stick of cigg for the past 5 days yaww~

*clap2! :D

hehs~

i hev no idea why i typed in malay~

nitez ppl.

pooof~

2010-11-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

watched "Lagenda Budak Setan" just now.
ok let me rate it.-6.5 out of 10 jek.
BORING.
i dont know why people keep insisting that the movie is awesome, i wonder~

the only thing that is awesome was the song by Gio i guess.
the song is like effing sooothing- sumpah mintak kene nyanyi sia.
ha.

ow well.
O LEVEL IS FREAKING OVER BEBEH!!
*jumping up and down*
come on,imagine me jumping right now n join me!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
haha~
here come the holidays~
really cant wait for all the drama thats gonna happen.
hmm hmmm..

wootx~
its Muhaimin 18th birthday today!
hahaha.the good thing is that they're goin to celebate the happy occasion at teban later~
n the other good thing is that they had invited me n adeq to join them.
soo ape lagi kan~
^^

ok. im late. ok da bye.

2010-11-10T17:32:00.005+08:00

I believe that everything happens for a reason.
~this is one of the reason why i'd rotated my proffy picture on facebook.
uhuh. i know its weird. screw it, i dont care. hah~

just like SOVA, every artist had their reasons for coming up with every pieces of art. so im applying that exact same mindset that they had. *just that im not an artist la kan~lols.

the first and the second paragraph doesnt match-i mean through the agenda im trying to impart. see that?

k now im blabbing~

now, lets shift our thoughts to something else.
erm..lets talk about someone?
so yeah..
lets talk about AWAK.heh.
now i believe that God gives u only what u Need.

ur departure told me that i dont need you in my life.
screw the memories that we shared.
screw the pleasant time we spent studying in the wee hours together.
screw the 'awak n kite'.
screw your busy schedule.
screw 'US'.

how busy can you get till u dont even have the time to spare a thought about me?
seriously mann, funny.
im laughing.
see?hahaha.

ok now i feel bad. it is as though i am being unfair.
sorry awak, hati kite saket tu jek. sorry.
pffftttttt.

now i believe that kalau ader jodoh tak kemane.
betol.

haha.
im laughing again.

2010-11-09T19:03:00.009+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday
NUR KHALIDAH BTE ZAINAL!!!!!

hehe~

ive wished u enuf already~

so i wont be gettin all sweet n mushy here la k.

wateva it is, happy happy slalu Di! cygg kao! :D

well, had a sooper mini suprise for the birthday girl just now~

imma let the pictures do the talking.

*pictures are few due to the exhausted battery. :)

so yeah~ dats e birthday girl tengah masai pat umah hahaha.^^

hee.

ok skip2!

hari ini hari apa yahh?

OMG its TUESDAY!!

this drama here^

should watch.

serious.

sooper gerek.

serious.

*to the extend till ive typed two 'serious', simply imply that i am seriously serious.

watch it!

Bye!

2010-11-08T17:18:00.003+08:00

it is time for a change now~

REVAMP!!
:D

2010-10-08T13:50:00.003+08:00

its depressing of how our friendship had turn out to be.
~it has been awhile back yet it still "freaks" me out.

One thing for sure.
i miss u.
i miss June.
:(

The end of P n K chronicle.

2010-08-21T23:09:00.004+08:00

I was dumb enough to believe that we can make it through together. yes, ive tainted ur heart-gave u hope then stabbed it without any concern of ur feelings, but that was then. im sorry. i didnt want to give u up. everything will be soo wasted after all the rough roads we've been through while being friends. but i guess uve said enough. straight point answer which pricked my heart.

"now that ive lost u it kills me to say
ive tried to hold on as yu've slowly slipped away..
im losing the fight..
ive treated u soo wrong now let me make it right."

i love you. guess it doesnt matter now.

:'(
Dont bother to decipher what ive typed, seriously.

2010-08-19T13:38:00.001+08:00

Ignore the previous post.
IT WAS A JOKE.
-.-

2010-08-18T20:32:00.009+08:00

wow.

i swear the news had really caught me off guard.

till the extend where kalao ngah minum air, air tu bole terhembus kuwa alek sei~ lols.

erm well, its funny really,ure funny walao.

coz shockingly, i laughed upon hearing the news.

nyehh aite now-no hard feelings or anething yee P~

from the bottom of my heart, i wish u all the best.

when ure heppy, i will gladly be happy for u.

last long n may god bless u both :D

^tats all i gotta say.ok daa, ckap sini abez sini..^

*ow yurh,hey M.Aidil.F.B.K.

obviously u dont need to see him trying to emulate you anemore.

guess ure happy now?

lols~

2010-07-26T18:25:00.003+08:00

i wanna chop2 my boring hair. miss those hair ^^ soo freaking much =(

2010-07-23T19:38:00.003+08:00

muker aku seriously cute. pffffftttt!=.=*** hahahaha

even if i miss u, yearn for more laughter, reminisced most of the memories we shared, wish that i wasnt this bored and realised that u were good enuf for me - i would still never ever admit this fact.

2010-07-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

remember when we were little, mum and dad always warned us kids not to to mingle around ,playing with things that are full of hazards?

i loved to play around with matches. the feeling when i managed to get that little stick to light was pleasing. the flame is small, however, when we touch it, that little flame wud still scarred our hand. haha. serve us right for not heeding to our parent's advice nohh. yahh3.

aku random aku tawu.

sooopeerr bored. :D

2010-07-10T15:38:00.002+08:00

by seeing through each other's eyes , some people opined that they can decipher what the other party is thinking. if that is the case, why does people get away with their lies and crimes? now i wonder, what are we striving for in life? loyalty happiness? pftt. on the other hand, some people resorted to ending their life. suicide. if suicide can lead to happiness and end all misery, everyone is sure to go for it, right? but no, suicide is suicide. blah. i dont know what the hell am i writing. these fingers kept moving around this keyboard like one crazy road runner. lol. roadrunner siol. haha. lame. yahh.

whatever, let get back to the point.

so long as something is never even started, you never have to wori about it ending. its like it has this endless potential gitu.

unfortunately, i'd started it. i dun want to worry about it anymore though. so is there any ways where i can reverse this pyschological tension that hev been conquering my mind? hmm. i realised that i dont love you. im tired of saying sorry. yahh despicable me~ lets just stop this yurh. lets do this together. go.
~favour muchh.

2010-07-09T17:14:00.004+08:00

was running with Naeemah for her 2.4km run-maybe thats when my stud fell of from my navel.

suddenly it was like-GONE.

i must say that it was preety much a heartbreaker!

*kalao nk tindek tu tempat tak saket,takpe taw........ gahhhhhhh!

im tired of piercing it for the 3rd time already. 4th time? haaaa....

OK SOON, i guess. :)

2010-07-08T17:37:00.005+08:00

suddenly i felt like giving up.

yes, i noe its wrong of me to torture you with those blades and knife.

guilt engulfed my world like no one's business after knowing that ure hurt.
-but im fine now :) can see that u're too. :)
perhaps just by looking from the surface and acting as if u understood everything can be a major unsolved puzzle.
ow well , im chickening out, as u can see.
im scared.

lets get this grieving n solemnising process over with aite wa.

so ,

may u hev all the joy of the world.
trip-ing.trip-ing.*
im sorry.

God bless u.

2010-06-03T20:56:00.003+08:00

i wonder if i am indeed doing the right thing or otherwise. i wish i could decipher every upcoming events that will happen in the mere future so i can alter each of my every move.

yahh~

****

ow well, mother tongue o'level was "smooth sailing". however, i still doubt about my answers after disscusing abt the qns wif my peers. its over n i really hope that i wont hev to retake the exam again. sitting on the chair wif the papers stood still infront of my face had really woken me up to reality-as in the importance of the points i'll receive. overall, i would say that o'levels is effing scary lorh.

sheesh.

i dont know y everytime i wanna blog about something, i'd tend to just type half way n den QUIT.

like now.

actually i hev tons of stories to share,many things trapped in my mind which wants to be released.

But,

ow well, i guess im juz being me.

pfft.

ow!

ive learned something new about myself- i get easily bored to almost everything.

daaaa.

2010-05-15T23:38:00.003+08:00

my life had been filled wif truckloads of works fer the past few months till i felt so uneasy of not doing any schoolwork for the past three days. i miss going out n meeting new friends just like the previous years. maybe bcoz of the fact that i saw aie, parker n mira's sis last sun at vivo. we talked for quite a bit n they really gave me a sudden nolstalgic moment that i wish it cud be relieved soon. gahhhh.

mid year exam was FINE, i guess. didnt lay my eyes to any of the science notes n textbook. so for sure, im totally screwed for both chem n physics paper. couldnt care less or might i say a bit.

was too distracted by zimmy's presence. yurh. blame it all on him wa. haha.

for the fact that yesterday was 15th n i still havent received my pay is actually pissing me out right now. grr. sometime i feel that i should lodge a complain to the hr. shud i? complaining can be fun sometimes, right? hmmm.

im done. nitez. :D

2010-05-05T20:28:00.000+08:00

im desperate.
i am in need for a bloody shoe!
gahhh!

2010-04-29T19:18:00.003+08:00

i wanna say a BIG thank you to this two budak kecik for the wonderful experience over the great trip on top of the world thingy.

Singapore flyer lerr.

rode it for free so guess how much i appreciate these two soo much.

haha.

2010-04-19T19:22:00.002+08:00

:D!

2010-04-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

funny,

how someone whom u barely knew had made such a big impact to your typical life.

Placed soo much high hopes.

Expected some changes to form by their existance.

but then.

unfortunately,

everything backfired.

ouch.

2010-03-25T20:18:00.002+08:00

A security guard who is working at the ntuc near my crib spoke to me yesterday.
it was strange because whenever i walked past him or stop by the ntuc to buy some stuff, he would always present his moody self to each of the passer-by.
I didnt realised that he could talk. haha. ow well~
He was just being friendly, i guess, for yesterdays' communication.
so aneway~
the conclusion is.
his words pierced through my heart n made me realised something really important.
" stay in school people, study hard and you will achieve what you want in life"

xD

GOOd nite~

2010-03-22T22:17:00.005+08:00

Can someone kindly slap me hard on the cheek and wake me up from this "i dont know mode" im in?
Slapping is perhap an understatement.
how about a punch or a thrashing instead?
that might make the pain feel more real. huh.
shit.
i feel soo sooper dooper crappy right now.
pfft.
'"/

ignore my "pouting lip".its hideous. hahahaha :)

hot-ness. gahh.^^

goodnight.

2010-02-24T17:47:00.006+08:00

i could still felt the 'pang' despite telling myself that it was none of my bussiness.
it is just funny to how Your heart had managed to shift soo tremendously fast.
does that means that "we" are bullshit?
whatever it is,
i am still thankful for knowing about it,though.
i simply dont have the time for any commitments right now.
so, cant blamed u har.
xD

i cant wait for o's to be over.
i hate the tension that is clouding my world with full of it's unwanted mist.
pfft.=.=

Art is fun!^^

'especially colouring.

ha.

2010-02-23T17:13:00.002+08:00

im stupefy.
Look at how shocked i am which uve made me. *see below*
hahaha.

2010-02-21T11:08:00.004+08:00

happy belated birthday to Faz !! i am special, i noe u noe.
^^

For such a long time( after the start of the school term), i felt soo happpy and relieved for fulfilling to allll of Mr Faizal's art assignment-for once.
the sense of satisfaction was there. Stress all gone~fade away n im hope it wont come back.
its just February for goodness sake, yet i can already "smell" all the upcoming tensions.
gahh.

ow well, met up wif Og last friday with Syaf.
headed down to marina square to feast at pizza hut.
i swear i missed him after 2 weeks of keeping each of ourselves silent.
despite missing him, we rarely talk much.
maybe its juz me, or its juz him,being himself.
i felt terribly guilty for that.
gahh.

pfft, ive been lacking behind in the area of all my friends updates to life.
to which guys u gerls been contacting to, To going out together-for once, again.,
To lepak n laugh till my cheeks gets sore.
haiz.rindu sei.
gotta catch up.=/

darx :)

2010-02-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

i want a Friend.
-a guy.
-cute.
-goes jamming.
-skate.
-tall.
-long(cute) hair.
-sweet
-treats me well.
-shoulder to cry on.
-ears to listen to.

who, is just to b a "Friend".

2010-02-11T20:57:00.003+08:00

Im like putting SOME lifes back to my blog.

Clearly, its like so dead lorh.

I actually thought of shutting this shiet n resort to writing a diary instead.

but, i guess that doesnt work-wasting of pen's ink.

yet, i love reading thru my past days.

and,

everybody seems to b having one...

so...

follow the crowd.

Lets go Wa!

OK,bleargh.

im tired.

nitez.

(find me. ha.)

2009-08-09T11:13:00.004+08:00

hahaha:D

2009-08-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

ive.changed.
uhuh.
:D

2009-08-06T23:44:00.002+08:00

*one.by.one.they.fade..

haiz.

guess.i.shud.really.delete.away.this.picture.

10-7=3.

sedehnyee.

2009-08-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

i.sensed.a.grief.sensation.creeping.inside.of.me.n.thereby
.confessed.that.im.missing.someone.out.there.preety.badly,
but.the.thing.is,
who.in.the.world.of.my.friends.or.loveones.am.i.missing?
gah!

2009-07-26T20:13:00.003+08:00

moronic.consequence.of.using.a.hairdryer.

ha .. 0.0

ow.well.

the.above.picture.depicts.the.phase.of.me.dolling.myself.up.

just.to.head.all.the.way.to.Toa.Payoh.earlier.today.-a.malay.wedding.

it.was.FUN.merely.bacause.im.attracted.to.a.guy.there.who.has.the.resemblance.of.Ficky.

he.is.such.a.cutestuff.oi.

hahaha.

currently.watching.Spore.VS.Liverpool.

n.its.2-0.alreadi?

O.o

2009-07-26T00:55:00.006+08:00

-me,syaf,n,naeemah.

a.random.shot.we.took.at.Dunman.High.toilet.

yeah.

we.woke.up.at.6am.on.a.saturday.just.to.get.our.ass.there.

ha ..

*** imy.

2009-07-12T00:47:00.003+08:00

i.had.a.really,really,really.great.time.flyinng.whipping.wif.these.chix!

i.swear.

haha.

ow.aneway~

happy.16th.bdae.to.....ERA.EDNIN.BTE.SALLEH!

2009-06-29T20:59:00.001+08:00

New.building..new.classroom..new.sitting.arrangement..and.a.new.timetable.
Grr.
i.hate.changes.sometimes.

2009-06-28T01:42:00.003+08:00

and.when.suddenly.i.feel.that.we.ought.to.start.afresh.
a.heartbreaking.news.emerged.n.thus.pulled.me.back.and.to.cursing.u.from.head.to.toe.
i.wonder.why.i.still.stood.rooted.to.the.ground.
when.unwanted.werds.came.downpouring.to.my.ears.and.told.me.that.i.should.stand.up.and.move.
what.the.hell.am.i.doing?
succumbing.to.ur.selfishness?or.maybe.mine?
erghh!!!!!!
grr.
=.=*****

soooper.extremely.tired.of.these.shiet.
sooper.exhausted.of.u.

what.should.i.do.now.urh?

hmm..
okey.i.noe!
=Drink.alot.of.Vitasoy!
hahaha!
xD

2009-06-23T00:09:00.001+08:00

a.shot.i.took.wif.ya.
*random.erh
gee.

2009-06-16T15:06:00.003+08:00

had.a.family.outing.yesterday.to.secret.recipe.
well,it.wasnt.an.outing.exactly.as.dad.was.not.present.due.to.having.a.bad.sore.throat.
so.instead..Aisyah.joined.us.
she.was.bored.at.home.
yeah~
ya.was.on.shift.and.that.was.mainly.the.reason.why.we.went.to.imm.s.r..rather.than.all.the.other.outlet.

met.up.wif.faz.soon.after.finishing.up.the.meal.
the.planned.was.to.skate.at.the.bsketball.court.near.my.crib.
but.he.somehow.kept.saying.that.skating.is.for.guys.while.i.constantly.kept.denying.the.fact.that.skating.is.olso.for.gerls.
he.told.me.that.cruising.is.fine.but.attempting.arduos.tricks.is.a.seriously.no2.
gahh.if.thats.the.case,,whats.the.use.of.heving.a.skateboard.daa?
ow.well.
i.still.had.a.great.day.wif.his.company.tho.
n.now.aku.rindu.banget.samer.dier.
grr.

oklah.
i.luv.my.blog.song,yet.again.
hee.
dadarz!

2009-06-15T13:03:00.001+08:00

move.to.the.beat.from.BVB.
\m/
haha.

2009-06-14T22:55:00.005+08:00

i.had.a.hangover.this.morning.
definitely,not.a.perfect.time.to.get.high.on.the.night.before.as.deres.an.ocassion.happening.at.my.house.today.
it.was.christian.bdae.on.sat.and.he.treated.the.whole.crew.to.The.Serenity.restaurant.just,below.our.outlet.
we.ate.seafood,and.err.drink.
i.aint.describing.wat.had.happened.when.i.wasnt.sober.
but.thinking.bout.it.makes.me.feel.like.puking.on.this.keyboard.
erghh.
im.not.going.to.get.drunk.ever.again.
mann.i.swear.

soo..
the."cukur.rambut"went.perfectly.well.today.
i.ate.alot.and.ofcoz.shiet.alot.too.
n.it.is.all.due.to.my.high.metabolism.
gahh.
saw.all.of.my.cousins.and.cant.believe.how.cute.or.handsome.they've.become.
haha.

i.effing.miss.Faz.
im.missing.Ficky.soo.much.tooz.
im.disgusted.of.Gino.
im.scared.of.Wan.

ok.daa.
gd.nite.

2009-06-12T22:40:00.004+08:00

nuriha.juz.bought.a.friggin.handphone.
n.i.am.
freaking.jealous!!!
wakaka!

ow.well.
i.am.seriously.going.to.werk.my.head.off.in.the.weeks.to.come.
hehe.
=.=***

2009-06-07T22:19:00.003+08:00

i.love.my.blog's.song.

wee~

N.yeah.

HAPPY.15TH.BIRTHDAY.TO.

siti.aisyah.bte.ahmad.faizal!!

2009-06-06T11:53:00.003+08:00

i.miss.turning.up.to.gigs.

i.miss.heving.all.the.updates.of.gigs.from.Hakim,Syahiran,Ficky.or.even.Sunny..

manerr.korang.menghilang?
and.i.miss.heving.long.hair.

gahh.

2009-06-05T18:08:00.011+08:00

i.was.blog-hoping.into.some.of.my.classmates.blog.site.
and.including.me...
most.of.them.had.decided.to.skip.the.trip.to.science.centre.
and.somehow.i.tot.i.was.the.only.one.not.attending.
lol.
its.crazy.how.most.of.us.hav.the.same.mindset.sometimes.
n.who.wud.want.to.go.to.Science.Centre.(to.crack.our.brain.nerves.).in.the.middle.of.a.holiday?
insane.

i.was.also.site-seeing.to.some.stuff.
and.my.eyes.eventually.got.stuck.at.Vans.com.
i.didnt.even.realised.that.i.was.drooling. ok.bedek.
but.i.want.all.this!!
gahh.

gaji.biler.nk.masok..
waiting..and.still.waiting.
=[

im.bored.
should.hev.follow.syaf,aisyah.era.n.mira.just.now.instead.of.heading.straight.home.after.meeting.boo. haiz.
=.=

it.has.been.twice.Wan.ajak.thon.wif.Hasan.and.his.peeps.at.Clarke.Quay.after.werk.ended.
i.kept.saying."nehh.nemind..u.guys.go.ahead.urh.."
n.sometimes.i.wonder.y.the.hell.did.i.refused.to.actually.rest.my.mind.,drink.and.socialise.till.the.wee.morning.with.them. hmmmmm.....

i.miss.my.boo.

not.the.way.he.is.now.

i.miss.him.being.the.way.he.is.two.years.back.

i.miss.it.wenever.u.ruffle.and.messy.up.my.hair.

i.miss.the.warm.and.tight.hugs.u.used.to.give.me.

i.miss.it.wenever.we.slept.into.each.other.arms.during.every.bus.ride.

i.miss.it.when.it.was.just.'U.AND.ME'

but.

i.guess.all.the.things.ive.said.wont.alter.anything.huh.

*sobs.=[

2009-06-04T13:47:00.003+08:00

"BORING?"
(wif.Davin.way.of.speaking.it)
yeah,currently.my.life.is.fill.up.wif.a.mere.mist.of.boredom.
instead.of.rotting.at.home,ive.to.endure.the.every.possible.hours.at.werk...
listening.to.basically.the.same.repeated.songs.every.to.and.fro.journey.to.vivo..
n.definitely.i.hev.been.lacking.behind.in.the.area.of.socialising.
takde.life.sia.
N.IT.IS.ONLY.THE.4TH.OF.JUNE!!
gahh!

n.yurh.
hev.to.wake.up.wayy.early.tomorrow.as.i.hev.to.gett.my.butt.to.Science.Centre.
grr.
=.=

2009-06-03T12:06:00.003+08:00

wikee!

work.was.soo.much.fun.yesterday.n.it.was.because.it.seems.like.almost.all.the.
malays.were.working.on.the.same.shift.
there.was.too.much.slacking.around,munching.on.food.n.trying.to.hide.
them.wenever.the.mngr.walked.pass.and.definitely.alot.of.laughter.hanging.in.the.air.
gee.
the.speaker.was.blasted.wif.jiwang.songs.during.closing.and.yurh.im.loving.FigOlive.
wee~
head.straight.to.west.coast.drive.to.eat.after.werk.wif.some.of.the.crew.
reason.was.because.there.wasnt.any.staff.meal.left.for.us.
hungry.sooper.yeah.and.since.diorang.da.ajak.soo.aper.salah.nye.lepak.ngan.dorang.
lucky.for.me,deres.still.a.last.bus.left.for.me.to.ride.home.

i.am.still.wondering.about.when.my.pay.will.be.release.though.
i.need.money.dammit.
gahh!
aisyah's.bdae.
date.wif.Faz.
shopping.spree.wif.close.ones.
n.
fulfilling.all.my.wishes.in.the.wishng.well.corner.

tak.sabar.nyee!

gahhaa.

tanx.dear.for.transferring.the.money.
appreciate.it.sooper.lots.
aku.rindu.kaw.gilerr.
grr!

2009-06-01T19:50:00.005+08:00

pictures do lie,erh?

coz truth was..

i was effing weary after a long day of werking and i just cried,seconds bfore taking all the above shots and syaf was trying to cheer me up by heving that smelly toupee on my shoulder.

ive read ur latest post,Boo.

i cant believe things gotta turned up this way.

ive never meant to let u go.

n i never wanted to go.

yeah, three years..

n i thought we were meant fer each other forever.

forgive me for being so raucous.

emptiness is engulfing my werld.

n it seems that i kept thinking about u.

i miss you,too.soo effing much

*ur silence makes me hold my breath.

='[

2009-06-01T01:50:00.002+08:00

i was tossing and gradually turning on my bed when suddenly my hp vibrated.
"Gurl , takmo sedih2 k.."
from Wan.

n now.
i just cant seem to shut my eyes when i was suppose to wake up way early the next morning.
aku sedih?
definitely. who duns.
its just a phase of my current time n rest assured i'll move on.

n yeah,
i cant believe how strong ive become to put a bravefront during werk just now when something huge had happened.
oklah, not soo huge actually.
gee.
and werk was horribly busy just now.
yet im loving it like nobody business.
they complained for being freaking tired while i was freakingly asking for a task to do when ive finished all my chores.
aku weird.
lol.
infact ive been pretty weird about alot of things lately.

werk starts at 10.30am and end at 4.30pm tomorrow.
n im thinking of extending it till 10.30 pm.
its all about money and keeping myself occupied right now.
hopefully, being busy can get my mind off things.

okie.
nitez!

ow,wait.
updates about my school life.
yeah.
ive passed overall.
n im the 14th/40 in class.
i think ive done pretty well this time round.
but certainly can do better though.
well,

shweet dwems people.

2009-05-31T12:30:00.001+08:00

Calm down.
Options.
Positive thinking.
Explore.
or~
Seek help.

im.pretending.as.if.nothing.has.happened.
n.now.im.clueless.if.it.is.a.wise.thing.for.me.to.be.doing.
i.want.my.sidekick.to.be.by.my.side.right.now.
nuriha,aisyah,era,aisha,naeemah,farouq,noh..cheer.me.up.mann.
made.me.laugh.like.u.guys.usually.do.
aku.sedih.tgh.nangis.nie.
wakaka.
plz.help.me.to.diminished.all.the.thoughts.thats.secluding.my.mind.
coz.faz.is.currently.torturing.my.heart.with.blades.and.knife.

i.fiercely.luv.u.too.oso.but.i.juz.dunno.
confused.[x4]

fuck.myself.for.trusting.u.soo.bloody.much.
jerk.
and.i.tot.u.have.changed.haha.

*guys.like.u.and.dad.made.me.hate.guys.